Are you a google crawler? and, if so, why are you leaving posts? I'm mildly disturbed. Can you comment with how you stumbled upon this post? This sort of thing messes with me and now I am just now beginning at the dawn of wonder to try and figure this shit out. I really don't try to be anything but a sloppy blogger. How do I execute these timely, completely earnest, and cutting posts? Well. It's pretty simple actually. This is obviously my nonsensical response to a nonsensical contemporary situation.
And yet. And yet, it's sort of insulting to any real human reader for me to wonder about it. Aren't I supposed to have a naive faith in the internet? "Oh, yeah, it's not a total wrecked derelict piece of shit... well, by volume, only about 5% of it isn't." Sure, you can try to argue it isn't.
Not so insulting either that it could lead to terminal frustration. I mean I write this shit out sometimes, maintaining no real schedule or coherence. There is no focus of attention I never really write about anything except sometimes I'll do that bullshit thing where it's recent events or something. Recently Diablo 3 but who really gave a fuck? I maybe did for a few hours, but the whole world had a lead on me and the thing burned out as things do.
And so I'll do that bullshit thing where I write about or include likely terms but really, what happens but you search google hopelessly and this content farm yields a few matches. That's kind of the shit thing about the internet, it's so vast and organized in such (parallel) preferential hierarchies that finding anything is worse than ever. You'll find bullshit echoes of things you want to find, but everything's moved on or been killed or corrupted.
I'll try to do things for views but mostly you could pejoratively say I just do some self-satisfactory writing exercises, help nobody, basically just wring sentences out of whatever soup of words is in my head at the time. I think it has some worth, but not that much that it'd be a manuscript or something, and so on I post. It's a simple system and I think there are definitely things posted where either the writing or complete inanity has been worth the price of reading.
You'll find news articles much worse than this in execution and style. Go read some right now and come back, and tell honestly of their eloquence and, most of the time, fuck them. When it comes to well written hack writing, I won't say I'm expert, but I do not lack for trying or panache. Which is why I try to blog it – albeit sloppily.
And, I don't know if I'm being taboo or obtuse, but things have seemed grim to me lately. I don't think it's so dire as some would make it, but there are definitely lingering clouds of doubt in my mind. These have been around awhile so I think I'm justified in taking a small moment to reflect on it and also type it out for reference. Which adds to the cycle of doubt. Then everything gets crazy
All of which goes to say I obviously have nothing to say. There are all kinds of things happening around the world right now. You probably know of some. Personally at this time I can't say if there is activity in Europe or frivolity in Antarctica. I couldn't tell you what the best seller of the moment was. I can't find a story to write about at all, that I'd post anonymously onto the internet where it would get caught up in the nets thrown out by the firms, governments, co-operatives, NGO's, not-for -profits, organizations, cartels, and conglomerates of the world.
And summarily censored to hell, filed by regressive paranoid systems into particular orbits, and disappeared. Yet of course, absolutely, that's insane. Or nothing's going on at all. Or God. Or who cares. Or what's the point? Or it's a cycle, an oscillation of time and matter, a bastard interval. Or it's all incomprehensible. Or you know better, or I do and there's still really no point to posting into the indifferent void of the internet anything, well-written or boring or hack shit or what, that any body can think up.
After all, obviously, it has already existed. This is the internet.
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